day 5 aka im so bad at consistency

My coworker yesterday thought I was supporting a cancer awareness cause, and another acquaintance thought that I actually had cancer.
I'm doing this thing where after people I know comment on my hair, I ask them their first impressions, to get a clear, well-rounded view on people's assumptions.
I wore a headband all this weekend, I thought it looked nice.
Maybe it's just my imagination, but it feels like people are looking at me longer nowadays.

day 2

here's a floating head

It's not much but I forgot that I'm supposed to do this daily lol and I was about to go to bed when I was like "oh right"

I was a poopy wuss and kept my hat on all throughout journalism, and even in the cafe, even though I sat with a friend who knew about the project.

My roommate pointed out that the more I wear hats, the more people will actually assume I have cancer. When I wear it proud, people will assume it was a hairstyle choice--which it definitely was. But if I make attempts to hide it, it won't seem as voluntary.

I'm still deciding what I'd rather do.

THE RAPTURE PART 2

The Rapture: PART 1

Took my last shower with a full head of hair about 2 hours ago.

I'm in my last class of the day, and then I'm headin' over to a friend's house and I'm gonna go full on Natalie Portman.

I'll be filming the whole thing and I'll post it when I get home!!

I'm gonna miss the feeling of someone braiding my hair...

THE LAST S U P P ER

I'm in my last 24 hours of having hair.
Obviously, it's gonna grow back.
But not for a while -sobs-

I will definitely miss my hair. There's a lot I love about it. I love how wavy it is. I love its red undertones. I love the way it floofs up after showering. I love how it looks with French braids

I love my widow's peak. I love my cowlick. I love my weird little wispy hairs, and I love my lil sideburns. I love the way my hair frames my face. I love how it looks with headbands. I think my hair matches my personality. It's very Me.

I've only had my current haircut since the beginning of summer; before that, my hair has always been very long. Or at least medium length.

I love how my hair attributes to my sense of beauty.
But what if there's more than that to self-beauty?
All my life, I've relied upon my hair to look pretty. I don't wear makeup. I only wore it a little bit in high school. My hair is the only thing I can count on to make me look good. A bad hair day is equivalent to a bad day. A good hair day means I have confidence. I can walk out the door knowing I look good.
So you must be thinking how dumb it is for me to take that away from myself. I'm thinking that too, to be honest lol.
What I hope to get out of this project... is a sense of beauty that's deeper than the hair on my head. How will I see my beauty without my hair? That is a question I genuinely hope to answer in the time coming.